My life in point form

Argh..I've been SO BUSY.

I've been taking up two difficult task at same time and going for 2 important interviews in next month. It's gonna be tough. *pray hard*

I've bought myself a new hand phone finally! *grin* I bought another cheaper hp instead of my dream I-Phone due to my "big head prawness". Well, my highest record was losing 2 hand phones within a year. Ahem... so I'm very proud of the wise decision that I've made, and I just love my new hand phone! It's adorable, it's printed with beautiful floral and it's white!

I am having bad flu since last week, it still doesn't go away after taking the medicine. And I think I can't live without ice and ice and ice.....cream! When can I hear my sweet voice again? I'm just sick of my husky voice now!

I'm going to take part in another marathon in December. It's fund raising event for my primary school, anyone who is interested just pop me an email. And I shall sent you a link.

Christmas is at the corner, time really flies. I still thought of my last warmest white Christmas in Winter Korea. And I've started to prepare all the Christmas prezzies! My heart and mood is swinging with the jingles and bells in the air! ^^

And I'm leaving to Bangkok in Christmas for one whole week! Yay!

Sassisam for Pink Ribbon (and Christmas!)

I absolutely love that the whole of October is dedicated to Breast Cancer Awareness. Everything is PINK! Everyone is donating money for cancer research! And everybody’s getting on board - I reckon it’s just marketing genius!

October also means that it’s only 2 months til Christmas (eeek!). So over the next few months, I’m going to be featuring lots of products that make great gifts for your girlfriends, boyfriends and yourself!

First up, Sassisam have a nice selection of quality Pink Ribbon products, where part of the profits go to help Breast Cancer awareness and research.

Here are some of my favourites:

Aluminium eco-water bottles and Damask Card Case.

Pink Ribbon Card Case and Keyring of Hope (includes charms)

Pink Ribbon FOB Keyring and Damask Compact (silver-plated double mirror).

xox Enjoy!

Love

These last few days, I’ve been thinking about my relationship.

Yes, we’ve gone through some trying times. But despite all that, him and I, our relationship, it’s pretty damn amazing.

Loving. Full of happiness. Full of massages. Love songs before sleep. Meaningful conversations about things that matter. Daily giggles about random silliness. Delicious food and healthy living. Long hugs. Quiet moments. Lots of laughter. Mutual adoration, honesty and support. The highest regard for each other. And a passion for living.

Everyday he makes me want to be a better person.

I’m crazy in love.

In terms of our temperaments and personalities, I believe we’re very different.

But we share the same values, feelings and goals towards things like family, friends, health, work, money, stress, holidays, how we spend out time, our future plans.

Everyday he tells me how much he loves and cares for me, and loves his life with me. Sometimes it’s silly, sometimes it’s random, and sometimes it brings a tear to my eye.

I’m indeed one lucky woman.

Joanna Wang

Absolutely fall in love...

With her voice long long time ago..



Joanna Wang, another lovely Chritmas song sang by her.

Ahh..Chritmas is around the corner, Yay! =)

Celebrating Joey's 27th Birthday~

Celebrated Joey's birthday on last Thursday at Jaya One with some long lost friends.

Darling Joey, the birthday girl~ *cute*

The Girlss

And the boyzz

Lovely Addy & Joey~

Cass, Joey and Adeline

J & J

Oh..It's the biggest beer that I've ever drink!




Such a lovely night out.

Happy Birthday darling~! ^^

How to Stay Sane!

I decided to write up a list of all the stuff that I do to keep my life balanced and sane. Most are painfully obvious, but a list is a list, and I do actually stick to every single one of them!

1. Get a hobby. Something to dabble with for one hour a day. Blogging. Reading. Stitching. Gardening. Something easy to pick up and put down. Do some night classes. Don’t let your brain turn into mush!

2. Keep like-minded friends. I believe you need to regularly hang out with people with the same values on life interests.

3. Create a routine. I keep to a weekly routine which I try to balance with varied activities, for myself.

4. Break the routine! Don’t be afraid to drop the routine everyone once and a while. When things get tough, don’t be so hard on yourself. Don’t be so rigid all the time. Relax!

5. Keep a full schedule. I know it sounds weird, but I even need to schedule in playtime. My worst days come about when I’m feeling unmotivated to organise a playdate or activity. I end up dictate what to do and… it ALWAYS goes bad.

6. Find some alone time, weekly. This is an absolute must. Go shopping. Sit in a cafe. Get your hair done. Meet up with girlfriends.

7. Find alone time with your partner, weekly! This is another absolute must. Take a walk. Sit in a cafe. Go out to dinner. Watch a movie. Look into their eyes, and remember why you decided to be with this person in the first place.

8. Be active. Get out of the house at least once a day. Kick a ball around. Ride bikes. Water the garden.

9. Look for things to do in your community. Find cool parks, cafes, restaurants, new places to hang out..

10. Look after yourself! Exercise, keep up your dental and hair appointments, buy new clothes. It’s so easy to fall into the trap of dressing sloppy when you go out. But it’s so surprising what something so simple – like new underwear – can make you feel!!


What do you do to keep things sane? Let me know, and I might add it to the list!

Hon Hiew

My white little pup passed away on Friday night.

I was very upset.
I was surprised at how much i cried.

I just bought him a new blue necklace on last Monday, thought of giving him a little prezzie for being new and part of our family.

Although he's just a month with us, but it's been lotsa sweet memories, laughters, mishevious him, cute, funny, loving, and his warmest way to welcome us home..

Now, a few days later, I still feel numb.
My soul seems to lack feeling. Nothing, just heaviness.
A weight of sadness.
It doesn’t seem real.
I can’t believe he’s gone.
I miss him heaps.

Golden Linguistic Moments

My 3yo student has a rather interesting way of interpreting the English language.

He calls spaghetti – Mister Getty.

Important is Port Tenant.

Comfortable is actually a Comfy Table.

Dessert is Berserk.

And Pistachios are Moustachios.

And sometimes, just for fun, I like to make him say them all in one sentence.

Personal Goals - August 2009

Hey, we’re up to month number 8 already!

So once again, here are what I'm doing and what I'm trying to achieve for this month.

1) Look After My Skin

i) Wear sun cream. Use a good quality moisturiser with at least SPF 15+. Apply in the morning and re-apply in the afternoon. I’ve switched my day moisturiser, tinted-moisturiser and foundation to products with SPF.

ii) Cut down on chocolate. Too much sugar is really bad for skin. I have to be honest with myself, there are only 3 days in the month that I actually NEED CHOCOLATE. So there is a complete ban on chocolate for the other 28 or so days! Wish me luck!

iii) Give up coffee! Too much caffeine is absolutely evil for your skin and body! So I don’t touch the stuff any more.

iv) Drink more water. I’m always reluctant to drink more when it’s too busy and cold.

v) Get more sleep. Most of the day I’ve been getting to bed only after late night. Trying to get to bed earlier, say like 11pm/12am and get up by 6am for morning runs.

2) Improve my fitness
I haven't been sweating much for weeks, arghh I need to do some swimming and runs!

3) Get Organised!!
I’m all over the place! I have so much happening these next two months!!!

4) Find 5 things to be thankful for.
Some days I am skipping with happiness or energy. Other days I’m miserable with despair and frustration. I’ve found a nice habit to do – whether it is a good day or a bad day – to find 5 things to be thankful for.

5) Re-energise myself daily.
I try to get some rest during the day. I can’t nap. So instead, I find some quiet time to lie down for at least 30 minutes each day.

6) Save money!
I’m being much more mindful about the money I spend. Eep!

Packing

We're moving to our new house one week ago - so I spent the weekend packing. There’s so much to do!

Many people have suggested professional removalist - who come in, pack EVERYSINGLETHING into boxes, haul it all to the new place, unpack, then leave with a couple of hundred bucks. Sigh. It sounds like a hassle-free solution. But I have a real problem with strangers touching my stuff. In fact, I don’t feel comfortable with the idea of my friends and family looking and sorting through my things.

So yes, we’re doing it the old fashion way. Pack everything into boxes. Label them. And those who want to help can move them to and from the truck.

Anyway. I used to make junk furniture art when I was a teenager. And I still have boxes and boxes and boxes of string, nails, bits of cardboard, wire, straw, gauze, sticks, feathers, ribbons, beads, rocks, different coloured sand, material scraps, empty film canisters, old batteries, broken bits of plastic mechanical things (clocks, radios, computer parts, heaters, toys, kitchen appliances), etc. And I keep them because I don’t ever want to be in a situation where I desperately need 16 yellow ping pong balls…

I also wrote letters before I went cyber. So I have many shoe boxes full of letters, Christmas and birthday cards.

I also can’t bear to throw away my old clothes! I swear my late 90s tencel jeans will come back in fashion.

But what I love doing most is collecting objects which remind me of certain places and moments in life. I have rocks from Islands. Pebbles from Australia. A chopstick holder in shape of a naked lady I stole from a Chinese restaurant where I was the photographer at my friend’s wedding reception. The neatly folded gift wrapping of a present given to me by my first boyfriend.

Someone once told me , aside from ‘death of a loved one’ and ‘divorce’, ‘moving houses’ is one of the most stressful things one can experience in life. And in true Jessica form, I’m secretly striving to prove them otherwise.

The Greatest White Blues Guitarist- Eric Clapton

Simply love Eric Clapton. His finest playing of guitar, his voice, his songs.

One of my favourite "Tears In Heaven", was a major hit worldwide, written about the death of his son.

Touching and sad.

Party

Beautiful cupcakes: Let's Party~!

Cute Brother & Sis.

Andree and Me.

We have another month end party on last Thursday.

Great performance by kids.

Cupcakes, chocalates, jelly, vitagen, Mr. Potato..

So as the party wore on, there was so much laughter and merriment.

Happiness

Wow that one crept up on me. I remember it was January not so long ago. Now we’re halfway through the year.

6 months have gone. And there are 6 months left. What happened? What did I achieve? What were the highlights? And now, what am I going to do with the rest of the year?

Out of habit, I like to claim July for myself. All of it.

I like to indulge myself a little. I like to buy myself something new. I like to organise a party for myself, or two. I like to think of something I’ve always wanted to do, and heck, just do it.

I also like to sit back and remember the good things in my life. I like to celebrate the stuff that really matter.

My God, my life has been changed.

Most of the days, I went out to dinner, movie, and do some outdoor activities with my love. We have so much to say to each other. I’m astounded that I’ve known this guy for more than 4 years and we fall in love at the end. Life is always full of surprises.

Thursday, I've breakfast with my god brother who came back from Bangkok. It’s always so cool to hang around with good friends, talking, laughing and simply being yourself. Knowing that they love you for being you.

Saturday, in the evening, I went out with my family for dinner to celebrate my mum's birthday. One of my favourite cuisine, seafood.

Today I celebrate happiness. My life. My love. My family. My friends. My new house. My work.

Me, Myself and Me Time

Hey sorry to all my followers, I knew that I seldom blogging lately.

The other day, I've received a warm and caring oversea called from my beloved god brother. And that I realize I've been losing contacts with the outside world. Rarely online msn, no blogging, not even updating anything in facebook. Erm..and the worst thing is, I didn't realize it at all!

But no matter how hectic is my life, I always have time for myself.

By the time I was a young woman in my early 20s, I had worked overseas, gone through bumpy relationships, worked hard, partied hard, made friends, lost friends, earned money, spent money… all to realise one thing – that I was all over the place and I needed some stability.

Basically, I had to love myself a bit more.

I had to sit back and remember who I was.

So I slowed down. I learned how to enjoy my own company. How to be by myself.

I sat in cafes by myself. I sipped coffee and ate BLTs. I read books on park benches. I took long walks. I went jogging. I went shopping. I explored new places. Visited art galleries. Went to the beach. All by myself.

I loved it.

I loved the whacky conversations in my head. I loved how my creative juices would flow. I loved seeing the world with my own eyes and hearing my own thoughts.

And most of all, I loved being happy, positive, strong and confident. By myself.

Several years later, I might get married, travel a bit, move house, have children, and starting my new life as a wife and mother. A companion and a nurturer.

Never have I been happier. Yet, never have I realised the importance of ME TIME.

It’s easy to forget that I’m still Jessica.

It’s easy to forget that I once liked things like… kick boxing, Latin dancing, scuba diving, yoga, cycling, rock climbing, swimming..

It’s even easier to forget that, I once upon a time… I wanted to try wind surfing! Canoeing! White water rafting! I want to try a 3 day camping hike in the Australian bush! I want to climb Mount Kinabalu! I want to run more often in a marathon!

Life has been loaded with so much work. But in the other hand, life is sweet, joyful and as great as it could be.

I just love the way how it comes to me.

Life Sweetest Word

10 years ago, this month, we weren't in good place.

My dad had his first heart attacked. It was an aggressive attacked, resistant to heart operation, and there was no guarantee of success.That year, I was 16.

When everytime dad admitted hospital, everything that comes and goes, I sit and make myself remember it all.

I remember the bleakness. I remember driving through rain, towards the hospital, walking through a car park littered with leaves. I remember the smell of the corridors. The sounds of the machines and medicines. I remember having no joy in my spirit.

I remember trying to live - one day at the time. Having to concentrate on just getting through that single day. It was too painful to think about the future, or life. I would crumble at the thought of how the little things would never be the same - a family picnic in the park, a trip to the beach, a cup of tea at a cafe.

I remember thinking that I might lose my dad. That I would be sitting in our house, with every single object around me, reminding me of the one I love. That I might forget his face.

I remember the sheer focus and mental discipline that was needed to stop myself from going mad. The thousands of terrible and depressing thoughts, raining relentlessly in my head, images I couldn’t stop, clouding my view, gripping, choking, dragging me down to that deep, dark place.

I remember faith. Holding on to this really huge floating thing that kept my head above the water. I wasn’t exactly sure what to do with it, nor why I was doing it at the time, but it was big, much bigger than me, and it worked.

I remember the helplessness. I remember I couldn’t do a single thing to change anything. Nothing. Just hopelessness. Emptiness. And heart-wrenching sadness.

Then I snap out of it. I sit back from my reverie, and I think, Oh my God, how did I escape that one?

Did it really happen? Is this real? Am I REALLY sitting here with my dad and mum? With everyone smiling and laughing and happy as can be?

Why did things turn out like this? What on earth did I do to deserve it?

I’ve come to realise that the words “fate” and “destiny” are meaningless to me.

Whereas I discover one of life’s sweetest words - grace.

It heals all that is broken inside me, and makes me want to change my life. To live the best I can. With purpose. With significance. With gratitude. With happiness.

Happy Father's day to all of you.

And dad, I love you.

Addicted to: Body Butters

There’s something very special about rubbing nutty butter all over your body on a warm, balmy evening. My personal favourites are the Shea, Cocoa, and Coconut range from The Body Shop.

Kookai - Autumn 2009

I have been dying to do some shopping! So much so, I can’t work out where to shop and what to buy first… I’m almost jittery with excitement. Ok a bit sad, I know.

Kookai’s latest Autumn collection caught my eye, and thought it might be a nice place to start. I like.

Today's Sunshine

My 1 month old kitten, Tigger. Happy, sparkly-eyed and always full of energy.

Enjoying their milk at the wonderful noon.

Will I?

my very best friend,
my special companion,
my perfect match,
my unwavering strength,
my glow of inspiration,
my favourite dive, hike, music & art buddy,
my efficient dish washer,
my talented handyman,
the father of my children,
my lover and only soul mate..

The one who rock my world, and make me a lucky woman.

Will I ever meet you in my life?

Turning 26 - Part II

Had a great Sunday at GOLD COAST, Morib.

So I’ve turned 26 this year. It’s an anti-climactic event really. Yes, I’m one year older.

I like to think that I’m a very strong, optimistic person with a positive outlook on life. Yet I’m getting pretty edgy about turning 30 soon. I’m not sure why. The feeling is so incompatible with the rest of my life.

My friends kindly point out that I already have my own business, and it's running pretty well, a house, gone through various difficulties in life, travelled, worked overseas – WHAT MORE DO I WANT?

I answer, “A soul mate, and MORE maybe?”

“What MORE IS THERE??”

Perhaps this MORE is a spiritual one – who am I, and what am I actually here on earth for? – Rather than the pursuit of a bigger house, bigger entertainment system and more expensive holidays.

I guess I genuinely feel like I haven’t accomplished anything yet. Accomplished what? I don’t know. I feel like I haven’t quite reached my potential – that I’ve been dabbling around the edges of something significant for most of my life.

I feel like I haven’t yet been able to fully spread my wings and SOAR over the world like I was supposed to. And something in me is burning and bursting to break out.

Ah, it sounds ridiculous.

On the other hand, I still feel like I’m 17. I still feel like a silly teenager, happy, girly, irresponsible and selfish. Deep down I don’t feel like a “grown up”. Will I ever feel like a grown up? Will I always feel 17?

And on the other OTHER hand, I know that there’s still SO MUCH in life to try, learn and experience! So much to do! I want it all! Life! Needs to be lived!

…

New York's Les Ballets Grandiva - Men In Tutus

If you think ballet is all work and no play, Les Ballet Grandiva is set to prove you wrong. Originally from New York, Les Ballet Grandiva is an all-male comedy ballet company founded by its director Victor Trevino. Running in its tenth year, Les Ballet Grandiva has earned the reputation of being the most spectacular, talented and hilarious all-male comedy ballet ever. Les Ballet Grandiva has more than fifty ballets in its repertoire and some of the best male dancers under the company’s wing.

"Men In Tutu" is the ultimate send-up of both classical and contemporary ballet, combining brilliant dancing techmique, toungue-in-cheek humour, dancing mishaps and, of course, hissy fits by men playing both male and famale roles!

Fresh from their sell-out tour of Europe and Asia, this critically acclaimed company has toured the world over: China, Japan, France, Italy and South Korea. Making a stop in Malaysia for the very first time.

One of the best show of the year. It's absolutely hilarious, made me laugh until rolled on the floor!

Here is the video preview of "MEN IN TUTUS".

Enjoy :)

Men in Tutus 08:30PM - 08 May 2009, 03:00PM - 09 May 2009, 08:30PM - 09 May 2009, 02:00PM - 10 May 2009, 06:00PM - 10 May 2009, 08:30PM - 12 May 2009, 08:30PM - 13 May 2009, 08:30PM - 14 May 2009, 08:30PM - 15 May 2009, 03:00PM - 16 May 2009, 08:30PM - 16 May 2009, 02:00PM - 17 May 2009, 06:00PM - 17 May 2009

Filed under The Arts
Venue: Kuala Lumpur Performing Arts Centre Train: Sentul (KTM)Address: Sentul Park, Jalan Strachan, Off Jalan Ipoh, Kuala Lumpur TrainPrice: RM88 – RM222 Contact: 03-4047 9000 E-mail: N/A Website: http://www.klpac.org/

It's finally over!

The Ballet exam has finally over! Yahoo~

Ahh.. but it's just a beginning of another big task! And I shall share it later at here.

May everyone has a wonderful weekend and Happy Mother's day to all of you! ^^

In the midst of preparing the examination

Roses again

Another bunch of flowers that sent to me in the evening.

Big smooch to all you lovely, generous people.

Thanks for all the presents, flowers and emails.

Aww, I feel all warm and fuzzy and loved.

Turning 26

Thanks for all the birthday wishes + emails!

Life is back to normal.

My birthday wish for this year has come true! Dad has discharged from Hospital on last Monday. It was a miracle that we’ve walked away from all of this triumphant.

A miracle and triumph that can only be described as the grace of God.

So my actual birthday was today. But I already have birthday dinner with family on last Friday. The dinner was tasty. We had yummy Chinese meal at Shanghai Restaurant, JW Marriot Hotel followed by movie. It was such a lovely evening.

And I've got flowers this morning! What a surprise! I'm indeed very, very happy!

Eeek I'm 26 everyone! Thanks again for all your birthday whishes!

一封感动的信息

今天，收到了一封从远方寄来的信息，短短的几个字，却让我忍不住又掉眼泪。。因为这世上再没有人比你更了解我了。。


you are not alone.

不知不觉我们好像都长大了，有各自的烦恼。有时候你跟我说，有时候你一个人藏着。

好心疼你。不过也明白有些事情你只能一个人去经历去承受。

然后才会更美更坚强。

加油！ :)

Life is full of sweet moments and HOPE

Dear Father in Heaven,

My birthday wish for this year is..

To have a simple dinner with my beloved family, Mum and dad together.

Amen.


p/s: Thanks for all the caring n regards to me n my dad from my dear friends, ah Soon who is so thoughtful, thanks for your text and oversea calls all the way from UK. Quin, who always shed tears with me together..you have let me know that I'm not alone in the darkness. And Edward, KC, Loon...

You guys are not only have given me strength to carry on but also pull me back from that deep, dark place.

What on earth did I do to deserve it? I'm just too lucky to have all of you along my side.


Life is difficult but you can't go away.

No matter what comes ahead, I promise I'll be as strong as I could be.

The Sweat

The days have been hot.

The heat is choking. I can’t escape it. The walls, the floor, the air. It’s everywhere.

My house is an oven. My skin is suffocating. My body is aching. And I am so tired.

New Camera

I finally bought myself a new digital camera! My old one has been snatched in March, and I’ve been borrowing my dad’s camera since then. It took me more than a month to research, save up, ask around… and I settled on a Canon Digital IXUS 95 IS. Basically a well priced compact camera, with full manual controls. I’m very happy.

I must admit, I was momentarily dazzled - but not overly impressed - by all the new colouring features. Are they really neccessary? Maybe I’m just a bit old school. Or too much of a Photoshop geek.

How's the weather up there?

I found myself stuck in a tree.

Cold and wet.

Rain dripping on my head.

Hair matted against my face like sticky icicles.

I was jogging. Huffing and puffing through the park. I leapt over shimmering puddles on the footpath. My warm rosy cheeks welcomed the light drizzle.

But as the rain began to pour from the sky and the colours of the park faded into a dull grey haze, I found a patch of dry grass under a tree and I waited. I waited and waited.

As I think back now, I’m not sure what possessed me, but I thought it’d be really cool to climb the tree. Relieve my boredom? Better view perhaps? Maybe I’ll stumble upon some other critter also waiting for the rain to stop?

So there I sat. Three branches up. Swaying in the breeze.The last branch notch filled up with water, became too slippery and I couldn’t get a proper grip to get back down. I felt like such a retard. Just me and my two braincells.

Birds flew by and snickered. Ants and caterpillars were showing off. And the tree groaned in burdensome displeasure. In the end I had to take off my jacket, wedge it into the footing and make my way down in an inelegant tangle of legs and arms. I felt like such an island girl after that.

All good things come to pass

The promise about --'all good things come to pass.' What it really means is -- all good things will come -- comma -- to pass. Nothing ever remains. Everything is always changing. Like that warning, 'even this shall pass away.' I suppose that includes the sadness, as well as the gladness. If you wait long enough, the gladness returns again.

A nice, warm bath and a cup of good, nourishing soup can solve any problem.

Yes. Tomorrow will be better. Not perfect, but better.

That Time Again

It’s not hard to guess the hormonal condition of a girl when she comes home with dinner consisting of vanilla ice cream, frozen Tim Tams and Ice Magic.